Before;

Before, I was self contious
Now, I am comfortable in my own skin

Before, It was just a word
Now, It is a future.

Before, I was not able to handle things with trust
Now, I can sleep easily.

Before, I used to sing the Blues
Now, I sing the Beatles.

Before, I thought I was just not enough
Now, I know I was too much

Before, You smiled and it made me smile
Now, You smile, and my chest bursts, but implodes at the same time.

Learning things, and knowing what you knew and what you now know... Is important &
I thank you, you've helped me with a few things, and made me smile everyday im with you, hand in hand, or cam in cam... things just seem to work.

I understand contact is hard, but none at all is even harder.
I used to look around and see stuff.
Now I see explanations for things, and parahraphs of stories behind every door. I look at people and problems with new views, and understand!

Some also say knowlodge is power, but the power of knowledge drives a man insane.
But what if the man knew of this before he fell insane, what would he become. I am ready for the world, you've helped me see that there is better things out there than this town I live in, I am sadly, excited to move out and see new people, less inocent failiures. More dream-come-true's. Yeah I have a dream, but I also have a plan to get there. And along the way I have friends that support me, and her.

Hate is easy, we hear it all the time
But does anyone know what love takes?
Trust, confidence, courage, and a little bit of happiness.
You have given me this and more, now I sit here, unable to be with you on your birthday, nor get your present to you anywhere near the dead-line.

But.
You've helped me trust you, have confidence, be courageous and have alot of happiness. I can never explain my thank you's or expressions toward you. But I can write in a blog, (a very long blog may i add) about things you do. You ask me all the time, "How much do you love me" well, Im just scratching the surface here. Hell i've barely dusted the counter. It may take my whole life to tell you how greatful I am for not only you, but everything these new people in my life have taught me and helped me overcome, so I ask you to give me that time. Forever...